Sunday, June 12, 2011
"Take chances. Tell the truth. Date someone totally wrong for you. Say no. Spend all your cash. Get to know someone random. Be random. Say I love you. Sing out loud. Laugh at stupid jokes. Cry. Apologize. Tell someone how much they mean to you. Tell a jerk what you think. Laugh until your stomach hurts. Live life. Regret nothing." <3
I live by this quote. Every single day. You can, too. [:
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Just a few days ago, I lost my bestfriend. I had to end our friendship, because of personal reasons. Sometimes I miss her but I knew that I had to do it. It's for the best. I have to do what will make me happy. Not what will make other people happy. I have to focus on me. And I'm very glad I made the decision I made. I realized that I have so many people. So many. That care about me so much. But my bestfriend didn't care. She only cared about herself, sorry to say. I've known her for a long time. I should've made the decision earlier. But everything I needed to do, to make myself a happier person, was right in front of me. This whole time. I'm so happy now.(: Do everything you can to make yourself happy. It's worth it in the end. <3
Sunday, June 5, 2011
There's always that one person. Who's there with you through everything. For me, this person was Kaitlen. She is one of my sisters. My bestfriend. She's the apple to my pie, the straw to my berry, & she's the sparkles to my arts and crafts.:D. I love her in every way. She stuck up for me. To anyone. Who talked crap about me. But most of all, she made me believe. That I wouldn't be sad forever. She made me so much stronger. I don't know where I would be without her. I know that whenever I'm feeling down, she's only one short text away. Her personality automatically brightens anyone up that's around her. And she's been by my side through things that my other friends left me for. And I couldn't be more grateful for that. She picked me back up when I fell down. We have so many memories. And so much more to come. She's literally my sun on my rainy days. And I've had a lot of rainy days recently. But she brightens them up whenever I tell her that I need her. I hope she knows how much I love her. And how much she means to me. I know that we will be friends forever. Till the world ends.(; She's so beautiful. She's so positive. She's just. The perfect friend.<3
Everybody cries. Everybody laughs. Everybody makes bad decisions. But its not normal when you cry because you're ashamed of yourself.. Or when you're not happy enough to ever laugh. Or when you hate your life because of the decisions that you've made. I was like this. I use to hate myself. Hate my life. Hate everything. Because I felt so alone. I felt like no one was ever there for me. Like I had no friends. I still feel like this sometimes. Sometimes, I don't like the way I look or I feel like I'm all alone. I have to pretend I'm this ray of sunshine at school. I pretend. To be happy. Truth is, I hate my life sometimes, too. Because I made bad decisions. I lost the people I cared most about. I have scars on my left arm. And a heart engraved on my left leg. I'm better then I use to be. Because I know, now, that I'm not the only one like this. I'm not alone. There are so many people that are just like me. That have gone through the same loss, pain, and tears that I have. But I know that it gets better. That's why I haven't lost hope. Or given up. Because I know that everything happens for a reason. And everything I've gone through, has just made me stronger. I have no regrets. And I'm still healing from when I was broken. I know that it will take a lot of time to heal. But eventually, things will look up. And you have to realize, that there really are people here for you. Even if it doesn't seem like it. Sometimes, you have to go through the worst of pain to be truly happy. No one said it would be easy. So be strong because you belong. We all need a reason to believe<3.